Lately i do received some interesting "invitations" from strangers. They so called themselves "freelance photographer" and invited me for some shoots. Some of them even provide air ticket and accommodation to go oversea with them, so apparently they can "shoot" me after the end of the working ( so call working companionship). Some of them asked in the very polite way like erm... "hey winnie, are u interested in any discreet companionship after the end of the shooting? My price is very flexible."  ... .... .... .... .... Well, actually i am not really offended by that way but i found this quite interesting tho'. Looks like a model can have a "second part time job" also, he/she can switch into a community worker once the shooting is done. Interesting huh? Maybe it can be a very good field to earn $$ also. Anyway course i decline them in the polite way. I can kinda understand the loneliness being alone in oversea. But that doesn't mean that i am gonna accept the offer either


There s also this guy from Sydney even wants to PAY me for having lunch(course is all by him) with him in sg. So i told him why not keep the $$ and just bring me to
shop around in Takashimaya? (course i will bring him to those branded shops man, no doubt for that ). See, some people are just simply rich until certain level where they dunno how to spend their money tho

Anyway, had some shoots done during these few weeks, very excited to let y'all see the shoot i did on yacht with this british photographer.


Take care my baby boys and girls
and

    Had spent the whole night to modify my old, childish looking theme. I think that really reflect that for once i am a innocent, simple, childish and naughty gurl . Oh yeah i really miss those time tho', things used to be so simple and easy, there s no second thought and people are as simple as you are. Their intention has no harm at all. But now my mind has became more matured now, i hope my skin doesn't . Anyway that shocking pink and yellow font don't suit me anymore so i decided to give it some magic. First i picked up a wallpaper as my background and it has to be BLACK (cos black is a must in my life ), with some gothic sensual looking flower                 So the moment i saw this i immediately put it into my final list, hehe

    Then i decided to make  a relax and soothing theme so that when i log in i can feel it is home sweet home . I removed the previous shocking pink title and make it pearly pink ( Initially i was putting white but somehow i felt it's too old for me so maybe few years later i will consider about it.keke')

    Lastly the title " My Cor...ner" that doesn't match my new home, so that s why this new title came in. The Fragrance of Sensuality . I always think that my site is a very sensual sexy place, the unique fragrant will flow into your mind once you step into my world. It is irresistible and it 's addictive. hehehe. So it's almost 4am when i finish all these shits.


Had a beauty shot done with Henry with his GF as make up artist in last weekend, stay tune for the coming albums guys.

Enjoy your sunday.
Love.

    I have never felt so sick ever since i came back from India, fever seems never came down, so as others. This is my 4th day of illness, i am so tired but i couldn't sleep well due to the running nose and cough. I even cough out blood since yesterday. My throat is burning pain, my head is aching as i want to bang myself to the wall in order to stop the thrombing pain but i dun have the strength cos my legs are too weak that i even need support while climbing up stairs.

    Still i have to go to hospital with all these illness in this freaking sunday. Why this happening to me? I am as sick as those patient but why can't i get some rest like what they are doing right now. That s just unfair.

    But nothing can win the pain from my heart, it's tearing again. I was hurt again. Why when i am in such deep down period, when i need someone so badly he s not around, or the least i want to hear the voice but it disappeared since long time ago. I wanted to get some warm consoling messages to keep my life move on, to fight for all these and strengthen my spirit again, it just never happen. There s no call, no message, no sound at all. I need to hold my breath, pretending i am strong, buy medication myself, keep myself warm, support myself so i wont fall down from stairs, cheer myself up in an empty room, wrap myself tight as if someone is hugging me so i can fall in sleep.

    For once, i never felt so lonely before.

    Finally, today i break down and  cried alone in my room, i really don't want to show how fragile i am but it just passed the breaking point. I can't hold these anymore.



    Winnie, you have to be strong. Let s clear the mess up and get well soon.    


Happy mother s day to all the mother.

                 This is my 3rd week in Taiwan, the weather is still cold and wet but kinda get used to it dee. Dunno why my mood has been bad ever since i came here, it's even worse than the time i was in India Manipal. Is it bcos of too many chinese around me that made me stress out abit? I dunno. Maybe bcos my surgery result came out poor i think. Or maybe i am running out of finance that seriously freak me out most of time [ i didn't bring enuf $$ here actually, my dad only supported me rm2k and think i can survive in a month] sigh... this whole trip sucks seriously. Should have just organize this elective study thingy myself instead of joining this Ci Ji organization and let them taking control of us most of time. In this hospital we gotta eat vegetarian ONLY, the rules and all are just crazy man. We are all stuck in this small town where people here are just weird to me. The documents are in mandarin that make me a serious headache. Luckily my communicating skill isnt that bad so i can still survive. . Forgot to bring my lapT, so i can only online in library . Miss you guys so much ...

 

                   Further more, the food here are TASTELESS!!! How i miss those spicy spicy food and curries. The soup taste like water, the fried rice taste like white rice and now i seriously hate veg meals. The breads are the only thing which taste better than backhome.Shopping wise i think is good tho', just that i don't have enuf $$ and time to shop around. The shoes here are , clothes and bags .        

                Oh yeah forgot to mention about the hot spring, i been to this open air type hot spring and it was quite cool initially but after a while i found myself hard to breath and dizzy . Later on i found that the correct way was not to dip into the hot spring above your chest (tat s why i was hard to breath) and not too long (about 15mins is enuf)

                Guess next time i should have just stay in Taipei instead of Hua Lian.

                 Anyway will upload those sight seeing pictures once i got my ass back to M'sia. Take care guys.

     I am using  up my last energy to write this blog actually, cos it's right after the exam ( i only got 2 hours sleep yesterday night tho  ) plus there s more examSS coming. But i really feel like writing it now so yeah, who gives a shit of the exammmiess.

    I had a shoot done on sunday with Eric, Sam and Philip. Yes i know i had a freaking semester exam today ( Monday ) and i thought i could manage it very well ( but later on i found out that it wasn't so.) Anyway, i was having insomnia due to the exciting issue plus a nightmare gift that i only had 3 hours of sleep. I woke up at 4.30am with panda eyes and get eveything ready at 6.30am. Then i SLOWLY drive to Dahtaran to meet them . Got my car park in one of the hotel so i don't need to pay for the parking fees ( Note: In Melaka town you are requested to put parking tickets in your car wherever you park 'in the government places ' otherwise 99% Saman sure will be issued ') After that, philip drove us to a very big field (It was a long drive which i cant remember the roads and all) and held the shooting there.

    So everything were kinda perfect yesterday. The sunshine was just perfect with the strong wind that almost blew me away and it wasn't hot at all. haha. So shooting here and there, i was in bare foot climbing on the rock sometimes and had some abrasion on my feet tho'. 3 of them were very easy going persons. Eric came out a lot of weird but Cool ideas, guiding my poses and remind me to Smile oh yeah, and to close my mouth--> . Sam loved to capture whenever he can ( even inside the car and it actually came out nice tho'). Philip taught me something about the Pro type camera which is in between the compact ( a normal layman camera ) and a professional camera. The second place was a rubber plantation with lots of Aedes mosquitoes that transmit dengue.... and i got 3-4 bites actually .

    So i got back at 2.00pm and totally exhausted so i went to sleep until evening and started study till 5.30am. ( actually now my eyes are half closing ). Guess what, the exam was fine tho' hopefully i can manage to pass this.

Will put the group picture once i upload em into my lapT.  * Forgot to mention, i seriously love the twin babes soooooo much! opps. it's inside the picture. hehe[ from right to left: Eric (the one holding the baby girl), Sam and Philip.] The other baby twin was with her mummy. =D

Goodnight everyone... zzz

Step into my own with my breathing
Those shinning rays are no longer exist, they ain't no promised.
For thousand years the tree growed, yet it was taken down by the man in a night
Now it is left empty, people don't bother to plant there, no live willing to grow there.
Nobody want to have the same faith as the previous one.
At day it's warm, at night it's cold.
Slowly, water and sand left it, it's now nothing but a stiff hollow in the ground.
When it's gonna close, when it's gonna grow, no one knows.

I am half way uploading and arranging my photos taken from Bali, it's kinda too much but it's definitely worth it !

So My trip to Bali was 3 days 2 nights, on 11.09.07 ( 911 ), it was kinda freak me out cos i was worried that we might never come back again... ( you know, 911 + the bomb incident...) It was a 3 hours flight from KLIA to Bali, quite a long journey tho'. Oh yeah we took Air asia and it was around 1000 ringgit per person. In-fact it wasn't that expensive if you try to book it earlier ( will be around 200 ringgit), but we booked them like 1 month before the flight, so ended up 5 times more expensive. : (

    Well speaking of Bali, they like to compare their Rupiahs with Dollars, so we were kinda worry because we always compare with Ringgit and yes, dammit! The tips are more expensive cos they wanted $1 = RM4 !!! Yet they didn't do much things also, but we are all girls so we can't fight too much with those bastards. The other thing was they sort of cheating customers when exchange money. First when pam found out the indonesian girl was cheating, she became very rude and didn't want to exchange anymore. So we went to the another money changer and the same thing happened!! Wat the heck is this seriously!!

    So if we eliminate those events i mentioned just now, Bali is actually a very NICE place to chill. Let s take some examples:

1. The food in Bali , with reasonable price.
2. THe shops , and souvenirs are freaking cheap ^o^
3. The weather , cos the humidity is 50%, not too dry nor wet. And got sunshine .
4. People there are nice and polite (mostly), a lot of white ppl, most of em are Australian.
5. Beautiful sand and sea.
6. Hot chicks and guys are all over the beach

    Surprisingly a lot of indonesian know Japanese and they thought we were from Japan=.=''' ( even the european thought so). So they kept talking in japanese while we re shopping and we have to keep explaining that we are from M'SIA .

    Yes i became darker after 3 hours of baking under the sun. Sunbathing wasn't that fun cos u really have to change posture after a while to make sure each part are equally shared. And sun tan lotion is very very important if you don't want to get sun burn ( which is damnnn painful). Somehow i wish i could get it more tan but i am the one who is very hard to get tanned, haiz... or maybe i should go buy the tanning gel and apply it.. hehe

    The night life in Bali was quite happening and i LOVE dancing with those white boys, hehe.. but there s also some indonesian guys who tried their very best to get our phone number but .... we tired our very best to avoid them.

    So that's it for my trip, hopefully i can go Hawaii next time .

Finally glory has arrived, i am having my 3 WEEKS of holidays, yay!!

Just came back from kl yesterday, went to PJ along with 3 chicks and yes shopping eating and SHOP again. The cycle repeated for like 3 days, i was totally exhausted when i came back. ( my legs are cramping still but i am HAPPY! )

I found that PJ is cleaner than melaka somehow, got more rich people indeed (cos i saw people carry their Gucci, LV bags around in shopping mall tho') The foods are so much nicer than Melaka ( sure better than  nyonya ) but definitely more expensive tho.
SO i enjoyed eating and gosh i put on weight after this!!!! NnnnnOoo........ Back to baby face now, sad.

Later gonna drive back to JB, sigh. I hate driving!

Going to Bali next week, i simply cant wait for it man! I SEA, loving it! ( Will take a lot of pictures so dun worry pals, hehe)

So my holiday plans are:

- SLEEP!!!

- Watch as much series as i can!

- Of course movieSs as well ^.^

- Shopping ( SOrry daddy, i will try to control myself tho', muahahahhahhaha)

- EAT, i dun give a shit to my figure anymore cos i only have 3 weeks of holidays after a YEAR? So which have to eat as much as possible >.<

- Color and highlight my hair. I haven decided the color yet, maybe some dark brown and highlight in light ash color.

- Go to Bali and get a suntan skin color. hopefully i wont look weird in tan skin tho'.

Are you confidence yourself with your mouse skill?

Here is a game to prove your skill ^O^

http://i.euniverse.com/funpages/cms_content/6489/a-maze-ing_new_cursor3.swf

Well, i m kinda tired to make any complain about my life in MMMC, stress all the time, coffee every night, get up early in the morning to fulfill the 90% attendance classes ( sigh i really dun know why those stupid bastards want to make us having 90% attendance in each semester or else we gonna refresh the entire semester, not to say tat we fail in the exam then only refresh...)

I just entered the 4th year, the last semester results were like shitss, only 26 out of 139 students pass the community medicine, Yes... i was one of the failure.......... what to do? I really dun know......

Now really gotta work harder (I really have NO Idea how to work harder but yes i have to work harder somehow...)


And thammmm....

Oh, i straighten my hair again... hehe
Really cannot tahan the wavy hair i used to have, too messy adee. & Guess what? Guys are very particular in gals s hair, cos if u got a nice hair their focus on u will stay longer ..
So.... i better take good care of my hair from now...... hahaha

Sorry if i update my stuffs too slow, cos as u guys know i became very busy since i came back.. hehe

Almost had accidentS today when i was driving around...cos i couldnt concentrate at all.I couldnt recognise the roadS at night, my frens dunno the direction as well cos we r all new in Melaka. So they were like:" here here here !!! turn left, no no, right, left, no right!..." ....  Now i m really SCARE of driving now...

Clinic started today, i felt so stress, so tense... the doctors were very strict to us. I really cant breath when doctors re teaching. Somehow i felt like getting out of class. How m i suppose to survive in another two n a half year... I m so stress untill i want to quit this course ald...

I really need someone to hold me tight...

Now i just want to cry in my room....loud but quietly.....

WAT'S WRONG WID MY CONNECTION??!!!!!!I

I spent almost 2 hours to write this blog but it's GONE after i pressed the "preview & spelling check" button??!! Yes, i forgot to make a copy of this ....... damn it!

okay, i shall rewrite again....

Actually this is mainly about the situaion in the airport.

1st  was in the local airport, there's a very RUDE guy standing infront of the check in counter, kept on rushing me & my frens to check in the luggages, he made my fren Pam to repack her stuff cos her luggages were overweight for 24kg (she had to pay RS2000 = RM 170 if she dun want to repack). When she was repacking, he was like " HEY U!! FASTER FASTER..... FASTER REPACK UR STUFF!!! ". I saw & went to help her, he pushed me to one side & asked me " WAT R U DOIN?!" I was totally pissed & asked he dun be so rude to the our students here, he was telling me tat there were too many students blocking the counter  so he had to clear the "mess" 1st.. I told he dun pushed me again, he turned behind & shouted to other students to check in their luggages too.Wat the heck is this seriously?!

2nd, NO LIQUID containing stuffs are allowed to bring into the plane, either u check them in or u throw away ( thanks to u  terrorists ppl!! ). The maximum weight of check in luggage is 25kg per person, more than tat u gonna pay RS 375= RM 32 per kg. U can only bring one handluggage including laptop & cannot be more than 8kg. Only personal check in, no more group check in.

3rd, the security guard made me opened every single souvenior tat i bought , asked me to open my bag & pockets to show him..I had to rearrange them again after he finished checking my bags

When we finally waited our turn, the counters were about to close. So they allowed us to group check in & totally ignored the 20kg of overweight . When they found out tat the economic class were already full, they upgraded all of us into Business class. So we were actually paying the price of economic class but got to enjoy the service of Business class. hahahhahahhaha

When i came back i was totally exhausted. After having lunch at Don Sushi, i went into sleep.

The next day went to Thomas&Guys to make my hair cut, my style director Kelvin recommended a medium hair cut & i made it. Now my hair turned short & black, just like my hairstlye during highschool

 

Last night i watched a movie wid pam pam, the movie was so....... similar wid my life last time! Seriously, the actress (acted by Jennifer Annister) reminded me of the old me. I can totally understand why she was so sad, so lost & helpless. When the couple cannot understand each other & started fighting just because he didnt like to b forced to do sth tat he doesnt like to do & she was expecting tat he would offer himself to do sth tat she wanted him to do.... (complicating rite ?)    I totally agree  when she was hoping tat he would at least appreciate wat she had done & at least say "Thank u ", but he didnt.

When she started bringing some guys into their house to make him jealous, i told pam tat they were goin to end up the relationship Very Soon cos he would get hurt & so would she. Soon after, he also brought his "frens" in & threw a very "open" party. In the end..... my guess was correct      She was crying so badly & he finally understood wat she really wanted & needed but it was too late to make these things better. She was too tired to continue the relationship, so she left him...

I was laughing in between cos it really really happened to me, not exactly the same but quite similar in some parts. I was crying too when seeing how she'd cried so sadly, totally knocked down, i saw myself then too.

So.... if u guys want to understand how a gal thinks, i strongly recommend this movie ----> The Break Up

 

如果沒有相遇,也就沒有相吸,也沒有相愛... ...

天真換來的只有摧殘,真實只有帶來傷害.

一天天,一夜夜,一朝夕,一朝夢...

喜怒哀樂,甜在心頭,痛在心頭.

風帶走了落葉,也帶走了你的心..

大樹依然孤立,但秋已告別...

冬已來臨... .... ...

 

 

請求你... ...凍結我的心,讓回憶留存.

When i was young, i saw my frens had their bday parties & had lots of fun, so i asked my dad to organise a bday party for me as well but he always refuse me.He told me tat i hav to wait until 21 years old cos it would b more meaningful... to celebrate tat i hav enter the AdulthOOd.

So i wait... Imagine how great & how big will my bday party be, how many ppl will get invited, started counting how many frens i hav.. blablabla..  ** tat was LOng Time ago** ;p

After i graduated, i came to India Manipal. A very small university town  wid No Mcdonald, KFC, Pizzahut, shopping complex... but yeah there's Subway which opened few months b4. So i was thinking how it is possible to survive for two n a half year? But here m i again ready to go back, thanks for those instant noodles, rice, can food... ... so i can Survive!!

okay back to topic... just now was trying to complaint sth @@

I spent my 19', 20', & """" 21' """" bday here, imagine how bad they were. The 19' & 20' bday were OkAY cos we were smashing the bday cake, rolling on the floor, fighting & bla bla bla. But this year i wasnt in a good mood to celebrate, so i asked my fren to cut short my celebration. I asked them dont giv any present cos it's a problem to bring back home, so there goes the bday cards ^o^ thanks guys.

I cried on my bday eve cos i was still on diarrhea & abdominal pain. I felt so lonely even though i received lots of bday wishes from back home. So when the football match was still goin on i went to sleep . Thank u Yun Ping for calling me at 11:57pm & wished me a Happy Bday *______~.

I woke up early in the morning & prepared for school. Harmony was like---> Hey, Happy Bdayyyyy....... ( cos he was rubbing his eye after woke up ) GEEZ... tat's cute. I think he noticed tat my face wasnt tat happy tat time, sorry la  ... We went late to class but luckily Dr.Venayaka  din bark at us. I spent my whole day in psychiatry department, listening to the doctors 's discussion & patients 's complaints ( tat was bored seriously ). I came back tired & took a nap. At night Harmony & i went to Blue water to celebrate my bday but we fought in the petrol station cos he was complaining tat my pans was tOO low & my G-string showed up, i was mad bcos of this . But after a while he & i started talking again in Blue Water  ( thanks for the Dinner bebe ). After dinner he fetched me to Sruti's house for the cake session but Unfortunately the electric had been cut off!!! So after the bday song & the lemon cake, the celebration went into a Ghost story telling  & i was pretty enjoy the atmosphere

Well... that's my 21' bday. ( & i thought i was over )

Saturday (08.07.06) pamela was spending her whole day in kitchen . This is the 1st time i hav seen her  SO busy & exhausting. The kitchen was in a DEEP mess & everybody were busy to cook, bake, fried, steam, stir & cut. But there's exception who were playing online games while the rest were busy. The dinner started at 9:30pm & the guys were too hungry until they gathered in CJ's room started making noise **my Poor little puppies started dripping saliva when the baking smell flow into CJ's room**. 

MY MEALs are---> The emperor chicken, chinese steam TouFu wid meat, KangKong(veg), scramble egg wid sweet onion, Portugal egg tart, mango Jelly & caramel custard.  .

Here r the list of ppl tat i hav to thanks for=

thank u daddy for the early message.

thank u mummy for the "late" call.

thank u Yun Ping, Bjorn, Lin Ing, shrutian for the bday cards.

thank u Trevor for the chocolate cakes.

thank u my harmony darling for the ear ring & necklace set.

thank u PAM for the wonderful Lemon cake & saturday's dinner!! The foods were D'licious!! Luv u SOOO MUCH!!!!!!

thank u Sye Jie, Chia Yen, Pui Yan, CW, Ying Szi, Lin Ing for helping pam prepared My dinner.

thank u my online buddies for remembering my bday

I am satisfied wid my 21' year old bday. Thank u very much!!

this is the XX times tat i had came out from my "ladies room"....

have been diarrhea since this morning till now **10:15pm**

gosh i shouldn't took the booster chicken jz bcos my fren told me tat it tasted like KFC! shouldn't put so much hope on tat chicken! it didn't taste like KFC at all n not even crispy.... & the worst thing was i got Diarrhea after eating the chicken!!

here goes the Power of the contaminated chicken--->

okay, i woke up 7:20 am this morning & felt my stomach wasn't well.. so i went to the toilet & get my 1st round.

then went to the class & i cant concentrate at all cos i was so dizzy in the AC hall. So i waited until the lecture class over & quickly went back to hostel.

thanks for fetching me back Harmony

when i reached my room, i rushed to the toilet & vomited acid ** cos i din have breakfast this morning**. The next thing was diarrhea again! :(

I lied down on bed & tried to rest. i started feelin cold & body ache...So i wore my jacket, gloves, socks, cap & went to sleep.. ** mummification**

when i woke up it was 3:00pm & my stomach went empty But... i had severe headache!! ** migraine **..

tears started fall down again bcos it was soo painful until u cant hold the next moment... 

i started to miss m'sia, my family, my friends.....

wat to do?

 

i took 2 panadols & went to sleep again... my fren came back from class & woke me up, cooked some porridge for me cos i was totally exhausted.

thanks a lot pam pam

But my stomach was unable to digest & my intestine was unable to absorb any nutrition too. So i diarrhea them out & there go my 3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th rounds,..... until now....

again i felt cold, body ache, headache.... haiz...

now i want to sleep but i cant cos i had slept too much .....

pity me.

sigh

this is the 5th day of depression
... my mind is gettin blurred. Think i slept too much while waitin the lectures comin...
playin cards till v get bored.... k u imagine tat? Those Lecture stars r sooo BUSY !?
i jz cant wait to finish Karkala postin.

recently hav to make a decision tat k change my whole life, if my decision goes wrong then i shall face it the REST of my life. mayb i should hav jz giv up & try not to think bout it anymore cos tat's really unnecessary. ** or........ shall i jz giv it a try? **

haiz......


saw this frm a lyric----> forgive & forget
for a thousand times i k forgiv but it will b really hard to forget ** well pam agreed too ^o^ **
things r jz like this... so?

back to normal life adee :'(

i hate classes...

i hate waitin..

bla bla bkla

period comin dee..... sien

** better dun piss me off o **

well .. i m now in the middle of india-->Mumbai & this is my 1st station *OMFG!!!*

how i wished i k go back M'sia!!! damn regret y m i choosed india instead of my home town to ~enjoy~ my holiday....

okay... this is the only well develop city .. but wid NO shoppin complex, No any branded shop... NTH !!!!! & it looks like a BIG udupi to me

the city is almost fully occupied wid pOOr ppl.... well those rich ppl will jz gather around Taj mahal hotel *US300 per night 4 normal double AC room*..... *ARGH!!!!*

the next thing i hate **the most** is the TAXI!!!!!!!! well those bustard will tried to cheat u.. they will jz increase the price upto two three times.. how k u survive in this country? n u knw wat...? ppl here r DIRTY & STICKY!!!!! they like to come near u n touch u **but luckily they prefer boys than gals ^^** so my guy frens always kena these kind of shit @@ hahahaha

the most comfortable thing is when u get back to ya room n take a COLD shower then REST!!!! this is the only thing which i had truely enjoy ^o^

still miss ma baby...glad wid his result ;*...... n congrates my batch nearly all made

okay my time 's up .. goin to leave here at 5:00am to udaipour .. actually the nightmare has jz started cos mumbai is the best among all  the place v Will goin to visit..